Balancing the world inside and out (1)

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Irrational idea for today:
It is bad or wrong to be selfish.

Some of the escalators are still broken.
Yet a third of the window is still uncovered.
Can't do anything or get anything done right now.
I can barely remember the mere memory of juice,
but yet lift my feet - hands - head to seek it out,
with a blinded nose and near-tasteless mouth.
Such is my strength, and also my weakness.

Refuting the irrational idea:

The objective facts: My own needs were ignored.
Negative self-talk: My needs aren't important.
Focus on response: Unwanted.
Dispute and change: What has happened past, has.
But that doesn't mean it has to continue that way.
People can be interested in who and what I am.
Alternative self-talk: I am considerate of others'
needs as well as my own, for my own well-being.

Why do you say that? I need to hear it.

There is you, me, and us. Those need to be balanced.
It is hard to explain. But it is important
that you and your needs are acknowledged and met,
along with me and mine, and us and ours.

Why?

Because I can't make a relationship be only us;
I need room for me. But if I take room for me,
and you leave everything in us, that makes us
deformed. If that makes any sense at all.


Me is not just an extension of you, or of us.
Me has her own strengths, and her own weaknesses too.


Acknowledge this all non-judgmentally, and let go.
The future is not as much set in stone as the past.

Don't put another cup of wine in my hand,
pour it in my mouth.
For I have lost the way to my mouth.
-Rumi