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Switch off the mind and let the heart decide
who you were meant to be
Flick to remote and let the body glide,
there is no enemy
Etch out a future of your own design,
well tailored to your needs
Then fan the flame and keep the dream alive
of a continent, a continent, a continent, a continent...

-Thomas Dolby
    If I were a believer in omens, this morning I
    missed the bus *and* the elevator to work is broken.

    And then, the cursor on my laptop froze in place.

    And I'm thirsty. Still so thirsty.

If you have not yet succeeded on an inward journey,
be gentle with yourself. Give yourself time. Gently let
yourself go deeper. Whatever experience comes to you,
let it take you over. Welcome it. Relish it.

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Courage is doing what you're afraid to do.
There can be no courage unless you're scared.

-Eddie Rickenbacker
    I have spent a lot of energy not being angry.
    I walk, I breathe, I work, I read, I think.
    Or I spend a lot of time fighting my anger.
    I dance, I write, I play, I sigh, I sleep.
    I acknowledge my anger and I want to move on.
    Tired of wasting precious time on the stupid,
    the lame, the halt. Sick of the energy drain.
    The world is so slow, and I am so fast...
    I eat, I drink, I listen. I dream. I hope?

    I know I am a very lucky person. I don't mind
    being an example -- hopefully sometimes a good one --
    but please understand: I am a very lucky person.

    I also believe that one often makes one's own luck.
    That does not negate the previous statement at all.

    And yet sometimes, I wake up afraid. Very afraid.

    Patience, listening, trust. Most important?

    I believe in magic. I do. I believe that the world
    is numinous. Now, if I could just see that more often.

    Even if you're running late, if you want to go, go!
    Because you never know. You just never know.

    Ah, but don't you see: I *am* queen.

    Dear Tir-na Nog'th, aka Unconscious,

    I understand that you think Standard
    Nightmare #2 is so important to repeat
    that you ran it as a mini-series *and*
    a sequel for summer rerun time. I get it.
    I got it. I grok.

    Now could we change the channel for a bit?

    Forever yours in Amber,
Shine a little love on my life
shine a little love on my life
shine a little love on my life
and let me see--

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Shucks, folks, I'm speechless.
    For those of you whom I haven't had
    much chance to talk to very recently,
    and even for many of those I have:

    As of Nov. 28, 2005, I enter a new world.

    I will be an independent contractor
    in my chosen field of user-centered
    analysis, design, and testing. I have
    a chance to operate as a consultant
    with Human Factors International, and
    I am (fearfully) looking forward to it.

    Thanks to those who listened so much
    when I could talk.
    Thanks to those who asked, "What's up,"
    even when I couldn't say.
    Thanks to those who offered good advice
    or provided bad examples.
    I have a whole lot to catch up on.
    Catch me soon.

    I'd rather be good than lucky -- but
    dreaming doesn't always have to hurt.
    The future is still under construction.
    All I can say is, I'll do my best.
How do you get the first olivepicker out of the bottle?

1. Unscrew the lid.
2. Show her some olives.
3. Wait for her to pick her way out.

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Please tell why, do we build castles in the sky,
Oh tell me why, all the castles way up high--

Ian Van Dahl
    Is dreaming just a butterfly, or
    just a sticky grey cocoon we spin and break open?

    If I dream of being in Kansas City, and
    not being able to find the rental car
    that I need to return to the airport
    so that I can get back home --

    (crows and chickadees chattering in the trees
    and one lone goose, laden, honking north)

    if I dream of lying side by side on the grass
    with my favorite collaborator at work, gazing
    up at the stars but knowing now (in hindsight)
    they'll never let us build that ship together --

    (a thousand seagulls clustered cold on a wire T,
    with heavy mists coming in from the south river)

    if I dream of Wodehousian young men in spats,
    dancing in line, twirling gold and silver pocketwatches --

    (the younger cardinal just bounced off a branch
    sending a yellowed maple leaf to the bare ground,
    as the soft eastern rays start to be cut off)

    if I dream of being with my back to the wall --

    (I never got to sit still in the side yard
    all spring or summer long. And this one time
    I'm trying to, well, even here I can't sit for
    an hour without being disturbed by a life
    that I didn't ask for. That isn't mine.)

    I know who the wide-eyed boy at the dance
    with the smile and bright copper hair was.
    And I also have some suspicions of that
    wary would-be mentor with the biker tattoos.

    But why Kansas City?

    Dear Tir-na Nog'th, aka Unconscious,

    Sorry there's so much on (y)our plate(s)
    right now -- hazards of spatial dislocation.
    Could you please tell me the color of the car
    next time? You know I'm looking hard for it.

    Forever yours in Amber,
... the circumstances of your life
reveal who you are, not
what has happened to you.

Circumstances do not make you
unless you think yourself down to them.

Iyanla Vanzant
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These days I'm happy to say
I'm amazed that I'm still around
And the weight of the world is off my back
When we fell, we got up
And crawled out the cracks
Excuse me if I take some comfort in that
Happy today, happy to play
With the weight of the world off of my back

-Elton John, "Weight of the World"
    Note to self:

    1. Write it down.

    2. Send it to other people in writing.

    3. Ask them to acknowledge they've seen it.

    4. Get it in writing that they've agreed to it.

    5. Be prepared for this to not always work.

    Count your blessings. Count your problems too.
    Make the former outweigh the latter.
    For example: wake up.

    Get regular exercise, eat healthy food, get enough sleep.
    Failing that -- get sick. ;)

    Sooner or later, the future will be here.
    You'll find me there.

    Thank you, Kate Donohue.
Keep walking,
though there's no place to get to.

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Stretch within your limits.
If you can't move your arm,
lift your fingers. Never devalue what is
currently possible for you to do.

-from _Stress Reduction for Busy People_
    Take a deep breath.
    Move when you need to.
    Stand still when you have to.
    Start moving again when you can.
    Act with high intention and
    purposeful awareness. Embody.
    images behind cut )
I savor every moment given me.
I plan for the future, but
I live for the now. I open myself
to the gifts the Universe holds for me
and value all my connection to the divine.

What beautiful teeth this animal has.
netpositive: (sato)
I connect with the Universe on many levels.
    I am grateful to you who are my friends.
    You tender me your advice, support, concern, sharing.
    You teach me new things and help me rediscover old ones.
    You give me your laughter, but you understand my tears.
    You are sound in the darkness, and a hand in isolation.
    I may not always reach out or listen closely,
    but I know who's out there.

With friends you grow wings.
you are a single feather in disgrace.
With them you master the wind
but alone,
you're blown in all directions.

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    Open eye, see clock, shut eye, sleep in.
    Morning hazy, but afternoon cleared up nicely.
    Pulled on my brightest pair of blue jeans and
    my oldest George Thorogood concert T-shirt,
    and ran some errands to the dual soundtrack of
    Robert Palmer (in the car) and Bonnie Raitt
    (outdoors at the plaza). Checks are deposited.
    New pens for the erasable calendar acquired.
    Picked up my weekly chai and then came back home
    to turn off the heat and open my bedroom windows.
    A small black and white cat sits on the sill.
    Her sparkling fur is red-tinted by direct sun,
    and she twitches as birds and squirrels pass by.
    Tomorrow may rain, but from today, I have sunshine.
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... there is no higher power
than the experience of faith in yourself
and in the Universe just as it is.

-Andrew Shuygo Bonnici, Ph.D.
    I am lucky to be alive.
    I am lucky to be conscious and to be able to take care of myself.
    I am lucky to have good friends and family.
    I am lucky to have capacity for work and aptitude for play.
    I am lucky to have good health in body, mind, and spirit.
    And I maintain all these things: I nurture, I heal, I grow.

    I choose to focus on all the good things in my life.
    I acknowledge there may be difficulty and obstacles,
    but I am determined to continue through or move around.
    I can accept what is, while still dreaming of what may be.

    I am very lucky in my life, and I give thanks for my life.
    I also make sure I am ready whenever opportunity arises.
    My energy is open and flowing in every area of my life.
    Every experience is an opportunity for me to grow.
I can be powerful and still have needs.

I give myself permission to ask for what I want.

I consider others, but I honor myself.
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The Universe is always seeking opportunities
for me to move in new and wonderful areas
of work and advancement.

Today, act as if you are queen of your universe,
and carry that empowered feeling into tomorrow.
    I just had to make
    an unexpected, difficult job-related decision.

    Within a 24 hour time period.

    While still trying to get 16 hours of work done. :)

    I decided based on some hard information,
    some careful reading between the lines,
    and a certain amount of intuition.

    No, I don't know if this is a mistake or not.
    I expect I won't know for a while yet,
    and I'll almost certainly never know
    what taking the other path would have done.

    But even when I make mistakes or fail,
    I will know that I am not the failure.
    It's ok to take risks and make mistakes.
    And I'm willing to accept any mistakes,
    and to learn from them. I have the right
    to make mistakes and not be perfect.

    I own my ideals, my dreams, my hopes,
    my fantasies, my fears.

    (And yes, when The Universe tries
    its best to move me out of a rut,
    I do pay attention. Thanks, Uni --
    I think. :)
The Universe provides for everything
that I need to achieve my dreams and goals.

I believe that I have
the power and the strength
to achieve all my dreams.
netpositive: (stojko)
I know and accept that
a gift can come to me
in many forms.
I choose to look for the gift
contained in all things.

I cherish my family and friends
and I am able to thank them
for the gifts that they are.
    Ok, I can't say having the flu is fun.

    However, the experience of being this sick
    has reminded me of how lucky I am overall,
    and how much I have to be thankful for now,
    both personally and in general, such as:

    my usual state of good health;

    the terrific person who ran out at 6:30 AM
    on a Monday morning to get me flu medicine;

    no one else in my household has the flu [yet];

    the current management at my workplace is pretty
    supportive of people working at home on occasion;

    my new (laptop) computer arrived here the week
    _before_ I got sick - i.e, just in time to be
    set up enough so that I _could_ work from home;

    the wonderful person who's been patiently doing
    his best to help me figure out Debian's Linux
    [with a minimum of "Would you just let me install
    a distro that _works_ already?" complaining ;) ];

    my coworkers are doing their usual stellar job
    of working along with me [not to mention sending
    get well wishes... and the latest office gossip,
    of course] to meet this insane project deadline;

    our pantry always has _lots_ of soup in it;

    this summer we replaced the refrigerator with one
    that has a working water/ice dispenser;

    our four adorable cats - World's Most Photogenic,
    Excuse Me I AM A Princess, Fluffy Bundle of Love,
    and What Particle Accelerator? - checking up on me.

    During the holiday season, it feels like there is
    a lot of focus on what we are "supposed" to feel.
    Expectations from others, or from ourselves, seem
    to get in the way of any sense of enjoyment, or of
    connection. Idealized memories - or wishes of what
    could have been - interfere with reality, what is.

    I choose to enjoy my life, and to accept what is.
I give myself permission
to enjoy the holiday season
in my own way.

I am truly grateful for
everything that I have


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