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... I guess I'll have to show more skin
in the next one. The public's demandin' it.
Y'know, when they ask for meat
you can't give 'em vegetables.

-Ruby Carter, _It Ain't No Sin_
    If you did something for me?
    Thank you. I appreciate it.

    If I did something for you?
    You're welcome. My pleasure.

    And if we didn't do anything?
    It's okay. Try again tomorrow.

    I feel my connection to the divine.
    I'm grateful for the light and heat.
    But a rainstorm would be lovely too.
Kiss me & don't forget
What you see is what you get

Oysterband, "Blood Wedding"
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Been feeling a lot more like myself lately.

A lot of me. And then some.

Kinda nice.

Meat and salt, and juice for me.

A pair of roller skates, and a brand new key.
Perhaps I have the universe. Or maybe it has me.
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Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that?
We must have perseverance and above all confidence
in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted
for something and that this thing must be attained.

-Marie Curie
    Heard recently? rain.
    Seen recently? rainbows.
    Smelled recently? cinnamon plum tea.
    Tasted recently? spiced chai latte.
    Done recently? danced ecstatically.
    Felt recently? myself.

    To do yet:
    Go outside for lunch.
    Live the rest of the week.
    Reflect. Channel. Transmute. Try.
    Time to write. Fiction.
    Look forward.

    Thank you, Tamar Amidon.

... have a good time, but not at someone else's expense.

Just about a year ago.
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The tragedy in life doesn't lie in not reaching your goal.
The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach.

– Benjamin Mays
    One can do things without having a goal, but
    then there's no good way to measure progress.

    The last couple of years have been both personally and
    professionally difficult, but useful. I learned that
    things happen, and you deal with them, and move on.

    And sadly there *were* a lot of positive things
    that I never wrote about, mostly because it takes me
    such a long time to write anything -- and then often
    by the time I figured things out, the urgency to write
    had passed.

    I am always very happy about good things that happen to
    other people. My friend noire has a new book coming out,
    as does ctan. Whuffle and halleyscomet are about to have
    their first child. Other people are graduating, marrying,
    getting new jobs, studying abroad, moving on, moving out.

    Where am I right now?

    I'll try to talk more about good things as I go along.
    But I know I'm not perfect. And I don't want to crow,
    or make other people envious. I work hard -- but I also
    know I'm very lucky. And I'm grateful for those of you
    who have supported me in good times and in tough ones.

Remember not only to say the right thing
in the right place, but far more difficult still,
to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment.

-Ben Franklin
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I understand very well being scared of the future.
Fighter jets and fire engines don't make me feel safer.
Just more scared. But that Rumi, he never said life was safe.
    It's actually very easy to be miserable,
    because nothing is ever going to be perfect
    in an less than perfect world. Be different.
    Do the difficult. Don't add to the misery.

    Be glad when times are good.
    When times are not so good,
    be glad you were so lucky, and
    try to make your own luck again.

    "And smale foweles maken melodye"

    Good memories are doubly precious
    - once in the creating,
    and again in the remembering.
    I wish I had a better memory.

    Life can sure be like an oyster. Hard shell;
    lots of squishy bits whose edibility is much
    a matter of personal taste; irritations; rarely,
    a pearl. So, how do I get this thing open again?

    "That slepen al the nyght with open ye"

    Of course, there's always something profound
    from the Beatles. In this case: "The love you make
    is equal to the love you take."

    "(So priketh hem nature in hir corages)"

    Don't wanna run with the big boys, buy bigger toys.
    Babies or marriage, they ain't the issue here.
    I'm not against either. I just want my own future.
    To write, to dance, to breathe, to float, to fly.
    To be strong, to be comforted, to be, to see. I.

    "Thanne longen folk to go on pilgrimages"

    Because a pilgrim has
    a clear path,
    a destination, and
    a plan to return to grace.
Deadlines and dollar signs
A cup of kindness and I'll be fine
Gonna patch up all those holes and tears you see
Don't worry 'bout me

-Patty Larkin
netpositive: (Default) other words, life ain't fair,
enjoy the bounty provided us,
and try to make things better.

    Dropped by Costco this morning. Normally
    I'm not the one who makes Costco runs, but
    I was already awake, and we were running
    low on cheddar cheese and microwave popcorn...
    The Long Story Short )
Did I change anyone's view of the world today?
I don't know. I just did what I always do: be myself.

And the universe rewards me with ten thousand things.
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I remembered Bogie telling Judy [Garland],
when she'd sit in the living room saying
she had more goddamn talent than anyone
in town, 'Talent's no good in a living room,
you've got to get out there and do it.'

-Lauren Bacall
    Being a shy and very introverted person who
    has difficulty connecting with people, I've recently
    been using a couple books for suggestions on
    how to cope with requisite social situations:

  • _The Introvert Advantage: How to Thrive in an
    Extrovert World_, by Marti Olsen Laney.

  • _Why Should Extroverts Make All the Money?
    Networking Made Easy for the Introvert_, by
    Frederica J. Balzano and Marsha Boone Kelly.

  • Having a wooden leg doesn't mean one can't walk, y'know.
If you continue to say "I can't,"
"I don't know how," "They won't let me,"
you won't, you don't, they won't,
and it will never get done.

-Iyanla Vanzant
    To notice how loud the world is,
    cover it with snow for a day.

    You are more than the sum of your parts.
    But that doesn't mean you can't increase
    your sum by improving one of your parts.

    Try to consciously rid yourself of at least
    ten things every day. You'll be amazed at
    both how much you get rid of and how much
    you have left.

    You might want to express your thanks when
    people do nice things for you. Or they might
You may be disappointed if you fail,
but you are doomed if you don't try.

-Beverly Sills
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I think about what is right and working
in my life. I focus on all the positive.
I acknowledge shadows in seeking light.

I am always connected to the divine.

    Walked around taking pictures yesterday evening.
    Nice to see the changeover from afternoon to dusk
    to evening to night, and all the lights coming on...

    Image behind cut )

If I find that I am constantly cheerful,
full of brightness and hope, or deeply contemplative
in the presence of a particular person, I know I am
in the presence of a gracious spirit, and I am echoing
the gift that is being given to me. It is as if
the lesson of the echo contains the secret
to understanding the space between us all.

Kent Nerburn
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If you are irritated by every rub,
how shall your mirror be polished?

    If it looks like a duck,
    water runs off its feathers.
    If it sounds like water,
    rivers flow downhill, over rocks.
    If it feels like a rock,
    jewels and glass both reflect light.
    If it acts like a reflection,
    polish it and see what lies within.
    Sometimes you can only see your own image
    by looking into the still waters of another.
    The flaws in your own glass are too close.
    Ruffled feathers may need to be smoothed down
    before one goes swimming -- or flying.

    A week in the life - a view of the soul.
    A lot of meetings going on. Some are productive,
    some clearly still rehearsals for breakthroughs.
    Digging through steamed crabs for the sweet meat,
    and the guts.
    Learning to draw, to doodle, with both hands.
    A sampler of Spanish cheeses, glasses of sangria.
    Walking home hot-blooded in the pouring rain.

    I appreciate my rewards, no matter how small.
    I appreciate the goodwill of my good friends.
    The gift of time is far greater than it looks.

    Pictures behind cut )

When you list the things you want
out of life for yourself and for humanity,
you can’t help but focus your attention on
spiritual matters. It’s a reminder of your core
values -- what you really believe is important.

Rabbi Max Weiman

A goal is a dream with a deadline. But do
dream first. Then worry about the details.
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Begin to consider what you can do
just this week, just today, just this hour.
How small do you need to make the time frame
in order to feel positive? Don't worry about
details; focus on just one baby step. What can
you accomplish in the next five minutes?

Move your body; narrow your focus; take action.
    Some things that happen in a weekend:

    Carry-out Cincinnati chili with sour cream.
    A glass of amaretto w/peach schnapps.
    Watching part of a favorite videotape.
    Get solid sleep. Emergency laundry time.
    See a brace of films by Orson Welles.
    Greeting some old friends in passing.
    Review new search engine documentation.
    Steam is rising off the Potomac River.
    Out dancing to a rare appearance by a
    traditional big band at Glen Echo -
    go through three shirts, two towels,
    lots of trips to the water fountain, and
    a life-saving bottle of berry Gatorade.
    Meet up late-night with an Oreo milkshake.
    Sun-dry sheets while walking to Courthouse
    for some iced chai. Continue with laundry.
    Plan for an hour of yard work (with water).
    Work on summary documents for presentation
    on the e-gov standards usability testing.
    Color hair. Get ready for this busy week of
    training + work + home + life. Pet cats.

    Let's take July one step at a time.
Fear comes with the territory.
Stop thinking that fear must vanish
before you can start a project. Fear
is part of life. You'll hear it when
you're perched on your growing edge.
Tilt your head to listen -- and then
press on. Demystify the fear by saying,
'There's the same old fear sitting on my shoulder.
I'll just go about my business.'

from _Stress Reduction for Busy People_
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Only put in a ten hour day at work today, and
have further writing and editing to do before
Monday. But I was determined to go dancing, as
a great band was visiting from San Francisco,
playing my absolutely favorite style of swing
music - the "jump blues" of Louie and Louis.

And I felt like I danced really well tonight.
Compliments from people I haven't danced with
for some months - a very good dancer seeking
me out for a second dance - an overall feeling
that my footwork was catching musical nuances -
and that my pleasure in dancing was contagious.
A good night, and something solid to build on.

Not yet sleepy... just going to relax a bit.
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"If you see a whole thing - it seems that
it's always beautiful. Planets, lives....
But close up a world's all dirt and rocks.
And day to day, life's a hard job, you get tired,
you lose the pattern."

Ursula K LeGuin, "The Princess"
    Work is currently crazy and busy and stressful.
    Outside of work, things feel disjointed - chaotic.
    Right now, my life feels full of tiny frustrations,
    bruised by collisions between my dreaming and my reality.
    I do try to make amusing stories out of them - with
    myself cast as the ruefully laughing goat - but inside
    I may be suffering from the contusions of daily life.
    Be gentle with your laughter. Be kind to my spirits!

    I need to remember to step a step back sometimes
    and to review all the paths that I am following.

    And I will value even my stumbles and bruises
    when they arise from fuller engagements between
    what my path is, and what I am trying to achieve.

    If the goal is overwhelming,
    it's okay to take baby steps.
    My goal is not just to survive,
    but to live.
a viewer has failed to complete a task. It will follow

-from Design Patterns for i-Media
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(as swiped from a couple of friends and then modified a little)

On the theory that we could all use a hearty dose of positive energy and general warm fuzziness while we wait, none too patiently, for spring and better times; that *no* one I know is getting told often enough what a good job they're doing just getting through this crazy, lovely world:

Take a second soon, and say "thank you" - or "you are a wonderful person" - or "I love you" - or whatever positive comment or compliment seems most suitable, given the relationship in question - to everyone you know and anyone you encounter.
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    Open eye, see clock, shut eye, sleep in.
    Morning hazy, but afternoon cleared up nicely.
    Pulled on my brightest pair of blue jeans and
    my oldest George Thorogood concert T-shirt,
    and ran some errands to the dual soundtrack of
    Robert Palmer (in the car) and Bonnie Raitt
    (outdoors at the plaza). Checks are deposited.
    New pens for the erasable calendar acquired.
    Picked up my weekly chai and then came back home
    to turn off the heat and open my bedroom windows.
    A small black and white cat sits on the sill.
    Her sparkling fur is red-tinted by direct sun,
    and she twitches as birds and squirrels pass by.
    Tomorrow may rain, but from today, I have sunshine.

April Fools

Apr. 1st, 2004 11:12 am
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I am creating the reality I want.
    Up too late, up too early. Still missing a lot.
    Watching the rain fall steadily onto 7th Street.
    Indecision - trying to deal - finally heading out.
    Try the simplest way over the river. Circle back.
    Watching two loner gulls fly over, bigwinged, upstream.
    Too slow over Memorial Bridge. Look out at the water.
    Watching the raindrops bounce off of the car roofs.
    The Mercedes shifts lanes, then back again, then over.
    Watching the water accelerating backwards in rivulets.
    All this morning lacked was a heavy-ass motorcade.
    Powder puffs of steam rise against slate grey clouds.
    Wrong lane. Wrong lane. The rain is falling down.
    Watching one lone starling hop in a tree overhead.
    Left lane, turn, back. The rain is falling still.
    Breathing - trying to clear - just get on with it.
    The first parking meter had taped on it: out of order.
    I have enough change, and a mostly-working umbrella.
    My coworkers are nice people. I do the best I can.

I own all my thoughts and feelings.
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I am aware that there are many healing paths
available. I choose to accept the healing path
that resonates with me.

    My life could be so much easier,
    maybe even better, if I weren't so
    unbelievably afraid of the phone.

    Yeah, I can identify those several incidents
    that have contributed to this over time... but
    that doesn't always make it easier to accept,
    or always provide me with help to deal with it.

    The phone is just a tool.

    Not an impassable barrier.

    Not a weapon of destruction.

    Just a tool.

I am willing to establish connection with others.

It is important to me to connect with those I love.

It is important to me to have a voice for those I love.
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I give thanks and praise for all things.
    Blue sky overhead starting to get that hot hazy look.
    The sight of spring makes me so crazy.
    Birds hidden in trees rustle and chirp as I go by.
    The sounds of spring make me so crazy.
    Flowers and leaves lead to fruit and trees.
    I'm not breathing the air anymore,
    I'm breathing light and sound and smell and taste and touch.

    I have a lot to be grateful for, this spring.
    I am healthy, happy, and radiant.
    I am growing and becoming.
    I have so much.

    May I be able to give you some.

Thank you for reaching out to me.
I am grateful for your presence in my life.
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Just for today
I will respect both
my own and others' boundaries.
    Walking to the Metro this morning,
    the hard March west wind freezing face and hands,
    gusts forming construction dust into shotgun blasts.
    Good thing I tend to wear glasses on Fridays.

    Sometimes you give so much light to me.
    More often, you simply help me to see it -
    what is new found, what was already there.
    I look in, look out, look around, look up,
    adjust the viewfinder, check my exposure.

    It's okay to use a tripod to steady things
    when the winds are wild and strong,
    when the light is difficult or weak.
    Whatever gets you through the night - or day -
    yes, it's alright. Don't discard what is working
    for you just because someone else doesn't get it.
    Should I throw away my glasses, so I can't see at all?

    Overexposed, incandescence may burn into the eyes.
    Underexposed, fine details are likely to be lost.
    Yet each can be used to achieve a desired result.
    Two points joined create a line; many pixels, an image.
    If we could connect the dots together, what results then?

    Let me be a coat of comfort to wrap yourself in,
    a blanket of security against the cold and the dark,
    a hint of an outline of a ghost of a presence espied nearby.

    It takes so little for me to give you so little, you see.
Just for today
I will balance others' needs
with mine.
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I nurture all my natural abilities.

I cultivate what I want to grow.
    Walking to the Metro this morning,
    cranky winter slaps back down impatient spring.
    Yellow-green leaflets taunt light snow flurries.
    Another chance to don the full-length down coat.
    A fifteen minute delay of trains is announced.
    I hunker down with the book that is absorbing me.

    Overhead, pigeons and seagulls shiver in the trees.
    Then, two hot-blooded crows rocket across the sky.

    Without reality, what would we transcend?

I find the best in myself and others.

Red buds

Mar. 3rd, 2004 10:15 am
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I am full of energy.

I am aware of other people's realities.
I am grounded and centered in my own energy.
    While walking to the Metro this morning,
    the red buds were very noticeable.
    Stirred by the satin touch of sun and wind,
    straining outwards and upwards towards the sky,
    barely contained, so close to bursting.

    I enjoy living in my skin.
    But oh, sometimes I want so badly to be outside.
The great soul is the person who has taken on
the task of change. If he or she is able to
transcend fear, to act out of courage,
the whole of its group will benefit
and each one, in his or her own life,
will be suddenly more courageous,
though they may not see how or why.

-Gary Zukav


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