Strategy & tactics (5)

[netpositive]

The lone and level sands stretch far away.
-Shelley

Lives are changing all around me. Marriages,
births, big moves, and the occasional death, too.

My life changes so quietly. I'm too close to see.
I don't celebrate things in a big way. I can be
often grateful for the tiniest things in my life,
but I have no grand memories. The hazard of living
kaizen, or of practicing wu-wei -- no markers, no
monuments, no pedestal of Ozymandius. Only a path
receding back dimly, and moving off forward, into
a hazy distance.

Happy with where I am? Yes, it's better than it was,
I am scared or angry less often, enjoying more.

Happy with what I am? Yes, the more I see of other people,
the more gifted and lucky I realize I am.

Happy with who I am? Yes, but I still want to be more.

A long time ago, a friend read a long list of
"I want" and mentioned that I was missing the word
"hope".

One question I'm having: What should I hope for?

But oh! that deep romantic chasm which slanted
Down the green hill athwart a cedarn cover!
A savage place! as holy and enchanted
As e'er beneath a waning moon was haunted
By woman wailing for her demon-lover!
-Coleridge

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[netpositive.livejournal.com]

People, yeah. So much in my life right now is because of the people in it. But not always in a good way. *sigh* Even just a village would definitely overwhelm me. I barely talk, and some rarely listen.

Takes two to tango, though I've seen three swing and four square, but in all cases everyone has to cooperate and balance. Me, I'm real big on balance. I'm a balancer from way way back in life.

But I don't want to be lessened anymore. Or just ignored, unless I'm needed.