Way in, way out, way behind (2)

[netpositive]

Look at your own circumstances. Ask yourself
if there is an unimagined source of strength
that you can tap into. Look toward the future.
Imagine a time in which you have widened
a place for yourself and have flourished
through your difficulties.
Daily Om

I'm trying to breathe.
I'm trying to breathe.
I'm trying to breathe.

I know I'm needed, I know I'm useful.
But am I valued? Time is telling.
It takes so many people to be me.
I want to work and play. Help me.

I've been trying to look up again.
Sometimes I see the sun.
Sometimes I see the moon.
Sometimes I see the ceiling.
At least I can still open my eyes.

I'm trying to breathe. Where is the air?

Some people get crazy,
some people get lazy,
some people get hazy,
some people get out--
Joe Jackson

Comments

[daecabhir]

But am I valued? Time is telling.

That I guess depends upon how you are assessing your value, and to whom. Funny how sometimes those who are closest to us - be they family, friends or lovers - seem not to value us through what is in all likelihood "benign neglect" stemming from a tendency to take what is constant for granted. Work brings its own frustrations, because while it seems silly to allow our jobs to define us, it is hard not to associate some of our value with something that takes up so much of our time.

My breathing gets short as anxiety runs high, and it happens in the most peculiar places. Why should trying to make a decision on what to buy at the grocery store (when my original well thought out but just-not-to-be plans for dinner crumble) throw me into a tail spin? It is, I think, just me... if I would allow myself room to breathe, room to think, perhaps it would not be so.

[vandaluna.livejournal.com]

If it's of any significance whatsoever, I value every post you make and every communication we share.

Ignore daecabhir. He gets maudlin at times with his attempts to blur the boundaries between white and black into shades of gray. ;-)

If you still need a home for bears, I can still find people with whom to share them. On the bright side, local groups and business are feeding the displace with very nice meals. Many are now in attendance in our schools. People are beginning to settle in.

Luvvies,
Vanda

[daecabhir]

pppppbbbbbbbttttthhhhhhttttttt!!!!

(howzat for maudlin?)

[vandaluna.livejournal.com]

That is great for maudlin.

Hmm... but it sounds to me that you really might want to consider that Lexapro. I'm feeling relatively great. I was somewhat concerned that it would take away feelings and emotions, but, instead, it is helping me see things more clearly.

But, maybe if I tell the doc it isn't working he will prescribe me some stronger stuff.

vanda

[netpositive.livejournal.com]

But, maybe if I tell the doc it isn't working he will prescribe me some stronger stuff. *evil grin*

Unfort, from what I know of psychiatric pharmacology, seems there's still so much guesswork involved that you're just as likely to be prescribed something that won't work... so if something is working for you, I recommend not breaking it. :)

[vandaluna.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I'm just kidding about something stronger. I am surprised, however, that it is working as well as it is.

I think that Mr. Maudlin might benefit if it works for him. ;-)

vanda

[cz_unit]

*hugs* Sounds somewhat familiar. All I can say is that I find you to be interesting, valuable, and a good friend through these years. So you are valued.

And yep, breathing is good at times like this. Need to talk via phone?

CZ