Way in, way out, way behind

[netpositive]

Using the light, being dark,
Being the world,
You perfect harmony
And return to the Way.
-Tao Te Ching, "Becoming"

I'm feeling more isolated than usual here at work.

Internal teams and projects have been reorganized.
And we're about to start a major additional effort
without what seem to be adequate resources, and
with what seems to be rather, er, belated planning.

Even without being paranoid about some "nuances"
or outcomes of choices being made - or not made -
I feel uncomfortable with the current direction.

I don't disagree with the basic concept, but
I'm worried right now about our ability to execute
everything well and on time - if we can at all.

A number of my coworkers are very good people.
Smart, hard-working, some offbeat senses of humor.
They have made it bearable to be working in the midst
of our normal state of blind chaos. But it feels like
my efforts to help promote visibility or organize chaos
have not borne any of the fruit I had hoped for yet -
if they will at all. I know I've gotten a lot of credit
for trying... but where do I trade in that credit now?

And as the year fails, I am now looking for some sense of
finished accomplishments, or of continued progress.

I keep coming back to this quote that struck a chord,
from the training sessions I attended last week:

Automating chaos leads to faster chaos.
-Dorothy Graham

Where am I? Where do I go from here? How do I get there?

I choose to stay grounded, and observe
my situation with compassion and detachment.

Comments

[candyguru.livejournal.com]

I'm in the same boat. Have been for awhile now. I'm not happy here, and the leadership is patchy at the best of times. My store is treated like a red-headed bastard stepchild... apologies to all readheads reading this, including DC, but you get the point.

Sometimes, you just have to look around and say it's time to move on. My first interview is day after tomorrow. If I do it right, it will be my last. And the kicker is, it has nothing to do with my intended career path; only grad school can get me there.

[netpositive.livejournal.com]

Understood. I don't know what to do yet; things are in such flux here and I am discounting my normal distaste for change, but I will be looking at my resume trying to figure out where it needs filling out now or in the near future, if only for my own information, amusement, enlightment, and encouragement.

As for your situation, you know I wish you the best of luck, as always. :)