Way in, way out, way behind

Using the light, being dark,
Being the world,
You perfect harmony
And return to the Way.
-Tao Te Ching, "Becoming"

I'm feeling more isolated than usual here at work.

Internal teams and projects have been reorganized.
And we're about to start a major additional effort
without what seem to be adequate resources, and
with what seems to be rather, er, belated planning.

Even without being paranoid about some "nuances"
or outcomes of choices being made - or not made -
I feel uncomfortable with the current direction.

I don't disagree with the basic concept, but
I'm worried right now about our ability to execute
everything well and on time - if we can at all.

A number of my coworkers are very good people.
Smart, hard-working, some offbeat senses of humor.
They have made it bearable to be working in the midst
of our normal state of blind chaos. But it feels like
my efforts to help promote visibility or organize chaos
have not borne any of the fruit I had hoped for yet -
if they will at all. I know I've gotten a lot of credit
for trying... but where do I trade in that credit now?

And as the year fails, I am now looking for some sense of
finished accomplishments, or of continued progress.

I keep coming back to this quote that struck a chord,
from the training sessions I attended last week:

Automating chaos leads to faster chaos.
-Dorothy Graham

Where am I? Where do I go from here? How do I get there?

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I choose to stay grounded, and observe
my situation with compassion and detachment.