I remember what this is like. Only I was about 15 then. We were only part way into our second year of high school. Losing Audrey to cancer haunted me and changed me for many years. I still think of her every Novemeber. I still wish I'd taken the time to do all the things I never did and say what I never said.
I know it will be a while before this goes away. Don't try to ignore it or deny it. Hold it close. Remember her. Eventually, the remembering will get easier. The questions fewer. The regrets quieter.
Until then, hold and feel the shape of regret and grief. We don't make nearly as much time for it as we should in our society.
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Date: 2005-07-13 02:33 am (UTC)I remember what this is like. Only I was about 15 then. We were only part way into our second year of high school. Losing Audrey to cancer haunted me and changed me for many years. I still think of her every Novemeber. I still wish I'd taken the time to do all the things I never did and say what I never said.
I know it will be a while before this goes away. Don't try to ignore it or deny it. Hold it close. Remember her. Eventually, the remembering will get easier. The questions fewer. The regrets quieter.
Until then, hold and feel the shape of regret and grief. We don't make nearly as much time for it as we should in our society.