Strategy & tactics (5)

The lone and level sands stretch far away.
-Shelley

Lives are changing all around me. Marriages,
births, big moves, and the occasional death, too.

My life changes so quietly. I'm too close to see.
I don't celebrate things in a big way. I can be
often grateful for the tiniest things in my life,
but I have no grand memories. The hazard of living
kaizen, or of practicing wu-wei -- no markers, no
monuments, no pedestal of Ozymandius. Only a path
receding back dimly, and moving off forward, into
a hazy distance.

Happy with where I am? Yes, it's better than it was,
I am scared or angry less often, enjoying more.

Happy with what I am? Yes, the more I see of other people,
the more gifted and lucky I realize I am.

Happy with who I am? Yes, but I still want to be more.

A long time ago, a friend read a long list of
"I want" and mentioned that I was missing the word
"hope".

One question I'm having: What should I hope for?

But oh! that deep romantic chasm which slanted
Down the green hill athwart a cedarn cover!
A savage place! as holy and enchanted
As e'er beneath a waning moon was haunted
By woman wailing for her demon-lover!
-Coleridge