A bit of to do about what to do

[netpositive]

Right Where You Are Sitting Now
-title of a book by Robert Anton Wilson

I don't like being told what to do.

Who do you think you are?

But if I don't put it on my to do list,
it may not get done.

I don't like telling people what I want.

Does it matter?

But if I don't say anything, no one can know
if I want connection.

I don't like talking about myself.

What if you find me narrow, or boring?

What if I tell you too much? Is that worse?

But if I don't share, what does that say?

Sunshine in the backyard. How fleeting it is.
The softness of belly fur on a burrowing nose.
I now own two necklaces and a jeweled hair clip,
but I'd trade them all to get my only ring back.
Music makes me feel better, you can't even imagine.

And I don't want to be too old to dance. Please.

"Becoming an Inner Environmentalist."

... Visualize your inner environment.
Is it cluttered with the debris of
old pain, impossible expectations, or
devaluing assumptions? Is it polluted
by the stench of resentment, envy, or
self-condemnation? If so, begin to
take out the trash! In your mind's eye,
dispose of unwanted and outdated
emotional rubbish in ways that feel
most freeing to you, even to the point
of tearing down and rebuilding the
entire garage if that seems to be the
right thing to do.
-Sue Patton Thoele

Comments

[vandaluna.livejournal.com]

I guess that sort of bourgeois paranoia is pervasive. The REM song says, "Oh no I've said too much, I haven't said enough".
I think many struggle with this whole dynamic.
I'm not sure if it comes from being overly sensitized or from one's spirit being overwhelmed by external forces. I do know it can leave feelings of mild dispair and isolation. It would be so easy to say just relate to those you trust implicitly, but you try to trust and you just get betrayed again.

On another note, your visualization is precious. Thank you for sharing.

[technoshaman.livejournal.com]

Of course, the trick is what you rebuild with. Trust, and good communication... first with yourself. Learn to be honest with yourself, and practice choosing good people until you get good at it.

I think you've already got at least one good person...